i used to have a secret smile that i would use for my secret virtually created friend. dark and bright at the same time...there was no middle color for him; that's why i loved our secret meetings in my little and suffocating eastern world. he could say "no" to me when everybody said "yes"...well, i guess i do enjoy a little pain every now and then.
i have lost him recently. i now live in his world, fast and polished and i wonder if i will ever belong here. i wished i lived in the real world again, where i can touch warm pale skin and read real books.
i suppose i am too strong to be happy. i only wished i told my heart sooner that the darkness one may truly love has to exist only in the virtual world.


i will start doing my homework now. if i want to be a princess and rule the world i need to be bright.
i will miss my darkness

today i am reading about feminism...its a great movement...a male collegue at university slammed the door in my face while getting out of the building the other day...he doesn't have to offend my intelligence anymore by holding the door for me...i feel equal...he is feeling even (?)

profi pics

my first professional picture...i am sure everyone will focus on my big heart here

Alina in London

this is a bum sleeping in the park :)
it looks like the university campus ;)

mi-am promis ca prima mea postare nu va fi o sfortare de profunzimi ca sa nu cad in pacatul tanarului intelectual roman, deprimat si cinic.
in mod surprinzator am ales numele de cat_eyes fiindca mi se spune prea des ca seman cu o pisica. pe langa asta, torc daca cineva imi ofera ciocolata.
am idei bune la fel de des pe cat am si idei stupide; nu stiu niciodata unde se pune virgula. din lipsa de activitate, voi posta cele mai chinuitoare simtzaminte iar cineva, din acelas motiv le va citi. iar daca gasiti texte in engleza, sa stiti ca sunt si pentru colegii mei englezi, nu din snobism.
bine m-ati gasit