i used to have a secret smile that i would use for my secret virtually created friend. dark and bright at the same time...there was no middle color for him; that's why i loved our secret meetings in my little and suffocating eastern world. he could say "no" to me when everybody said "yes"...well, i guess i do enjoy a little pain every now and then.
i have lost him recently. i now live in his world, fast and polished and i wonder if i will ever belong here. i wished i lived in the real world again, where i can touch warm pale skin and read real books.
i suppose i am too strong to be happy. i only wished i told my heart sooner that the darkness one may truly love has to exist only in the virtual world.


i will start doing my homework now. if i want to be a princess and rule the world i need to be bright.
i will miss my darkness